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The Big Bomb, Or Not

In Personal, Random on July 24, 2014 at 11:20 am

When I was younger I always thought, “By the time I’m 25, I’ll have it all together. A degree, a good career, a house, starting a family. I’ll know everything I need and it’ll all be perfect.”  When I realized I had hit and surpassed that age with still no clue as to what I was doing and what I had already done starting to unraveled at the seams, I got the first slap in the face to young me.  3 years later, I still have no clue what I’m doing. I still have no idea how to be successfully normal. But now I’m wondering if there is even such a thing…

I used to think it was just me, the curse of bad luck that seems to be passed along with genetics in my family. Things are going perfect, not a care in the world, and just when you relax and begin to really enjoy it – the bomb drops and everything blows up in your face.

I used to think good things just didn’t happen for me, not for long anyways. Then, through a series of these types of events and a few not-so-preferable influences on my life, I began to think that it was happening to me for a reason. As if I was a terrible person, I thought why would unfortunate or bad or sad things keep happening if I didn’t do something to deserve it all?

After growing and maturing, being put in situations or putting myself into situations that forced me to change my perspective on a lot of things, I’ve come to realize that my outlook on this was completely exaggerated.  It’s not me.  It’s just life.  These kinds of things happen to everyone – good or bad, young or old, happy or not. I also came to realize that it’s not as obvious for some people, from the outside looking in, because of the ways they choose to handle these events.  It’s not that they don’t happen, it’s that some people choose not to let it get them down or run the rest of their life.

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